My wife died in an accident four years ago. I loved her deeply, and I still haven’t recovered from losing her. We had been married for only three months, and it feels impossible to “move on.” I miss her every single day.
Her accident was very severe. Her body was badly damaged, and not everything could be recovered in full. We laid her to rest as best as we could, and the memory of what happened has stayed with me all these years. It’s a pain I wouldn’t wish on anyone.
There is something I’ve never told anyone. After the accident, I kept a part of her body. I hid this from the family, even though we all searched for it before the burial. I wanted to hold onto something of hers because we had no children, and I felt I had nothing else of her to keep. I have preserved it privately for four years.
Anytime I miss her deeply, I take it out and sit with it for a moment. It’s strange, but it has given me some kind of comfort. I know this isn’t something people would understand, which is why I’ve kept it to myself.
What worries me now is that whenever I dream about her, she appears without that part of her body. I don’t know if it means anything. I’m wondering if I should return it to her grave, but I don’t know how to go about it after all these years.
Another concern is whether I could get into legal trouble for having kept it. I never intended any harm. I just didn’t know how to let her go. She was the best woman I ever knew, and losing her broke me.
I’m not ready to part with it, honestly. But I’m asking for advice so I can start making the right decisions—emotionally, spiritually, and legally—if letting go is something I must eventually consider.
