I am deeply worried about myself and feel like lust is gradually destroying me. Before I got married, I was not like this. I dated one person at a time and was completely faithful. Once I committed to someone, I ignored all other advances.
After a very painful heartbreak in 2020, I later met and married a man who is loving, successful, humble, and God-fearing. He treats me well and provides for me in every way. Marrying him felt like a miracle, especially after what I went through before. He is everything I ever wanted in a husband.
Yet, despite lacking nothing in my marriage, I find myself cheating repeatedly. I do not understand why. I constantly crave attention from other men and act on it, even though I know it is wrong. I feel trapped in a cycle I cannot seem to break. This year alone I have slept with about 30 different men behind my hubby.
This behaviour is not making me happy, and it is not who I want to be. I want to stop and be faithful to my husband, but the urges feel overwhelming. I have tried praying, but I struggle to stay focused and often feel spiritually weak.
I am asking for help. I do not believe this is just physical. I feel something deeper is wrong, and I need guidance, support, and prayer to overcome this before it destroys my marriage and my life.
