I had a child for my best friend, and I would not say I am proud of it. We have been friends for a very long time.
When I got frustrated with the breakups and needed something I could call my own, I suggested I wanted to have a baby.
He was happy about it, but Dave, I feel he did that so he would not lose the financial help I give him most times when he is in a fix.
During my pregnancy, he would split antenatal fees with me or I would end up footing all the bills, even my delivery I paid more than half of the hospital bills.
But he footed 100% the cost of antenatal and delivery of another girl who was carrying his child.
I only found out after I had delivered and was home. I feel he is using me because of the financial help I give most times. Because whatever we are doing now, I don’t see it ending well at all.
Now I feel drained both financially and emotionally and it’s causing me to be depressed most times. I really want to move on and be a better person for my child.
I really want the will power to move on with my life and give my child a beautiful life.
Dave, sometimes we see the wrong we are doing, but the will power to put a stop to it is hard.
I really need help to start appreciating myself. This is a cry from a mother who wants to do right by her child.
