I’m a product of a “messed up” emotionally, verbally abusive polygamous marriage. My mom always told me she saw the red flags but she was in love. She also told me she didn’t leave because of us her children.
I’ve witnessed her go through so much pain and abuse even though she tries to paint my dad as an angel in our sight. Even though she tries to hide her pain, we feel it and know someway somehow. She’s been through a lot.
Dave, I wished she left. You know why? I HATE and FEAR marriage now. At the mention of marriage by a prospective I coil into my shell. It scares the hell out of me. I have the notion that marriage will always go wrong. In as much as I try to sensitize my mind. It’s difficult to commit to a relationship as well.
I unconsciously lookout for traits of my dad in any perspective that comes my way making me walk out of the relationship.
I’ll like to tell mothers, especially in such marriages to walk out as early as possible. It doesn’t do any good to the children. It depresses them a lot. I used to cry myself to sleep, always asking when all this will end. It makes them timid, they have low self-esteem, not productive and effective.
It is not good for their sanity. Please walk out for the sake of the kids and don’t stay for their sake: it does them no good.
