I am a young lady of 23 years. I have been living with this pastor and his wife for over two years now. They took me in after my dad passed away. They are the ones seeing me through the university.
They have an elderly son who was 25 years old but passed on earlier this year and it was because of me but I don’t know how to confess this to them. They are hurt because they have only two children, the guy and his elderly sister who is studying in another country.
The guy and I were having an affair secretly. We didn’t want the parents to know because the first thing they warned us against when I first came to the house was anything of that sort. They said we should live like a brother and a sister.
But I fell in love with the guy and one day kissed him first. He didn’t retaliate but because he didn’t say anything, I kept on trying until he gave in and we started having sex in the house. I was in love with him and I was always encouraging him to make me his girlfriend so that we can later fight his parents to let us marry if we finally have independence, but the guy won’t agree. He mostly doesn’t even want to do anything with me, I forced him sometimes.
One day I lied to him that I was pregnant for him and wanted to keep it so his parents will agree to us being together but he cried and begged me not to keep it. I stressed him for over a month, I made him do anything I wanted because those were my terms for aborting the pregnancy.
He wasn’t happy but I just wanted him to be my boyfriend because he was very calm, handsome and smart. He was also God fearing.
Later when I finally told him I had terminated the pregnancy, he swore never to get close to me again. That was when I became very jealous. I wanted him but he wouldn’t even talk to me and threatened to tell his parents that I was worrying him.
So one day I decided to do something, I didn’t think it will take his life, but it did and I have been feeling sad and sorry at the same time. I want to tell them the truth, even if I will go to prison, I don’t mind but I am scared. Or should I go to the police station and confess there?
